I don't believe in medication for health, I believe in sunshine and good friends

I often get depressed when I feel lonely.  It's joy seeking.  Medication provides mental numbness, and sometimes you need that, but it doesn't solve problems.  People seek joy because its fun, because its normal.  You have to ask yourself why normal people are so placated just doing the normal things they do, it's because they found some joy somewhere, whatever it is, whether its walking the dog, or being with their partner, or being in nature and so forth.  You just have to find your joy too, whatever it is.  Some people need bigger thrills than others.

Every day is a day of very little light

I try to concentrate on work, but the assortment of things strewn across my desk is astounding.  From water bottle cosies to cellphones and electronices to boxes of unopened chocolate, and a new bottle of unopened dessert wine.  I have the feeling if I remove this, I would be able to concentrate better, but then there is more:  The unused waterproof stereo system ipod player, a lone christmas card, a packet of macadamias, a single coin, a pot with no plant it is, all there perverting my background view.

But they should be left alone for now.