Even movember is becoming commercial

Moustache mugs and what not.
This world if freaking annoying :(

A Mess

Taking on way too much creates symptoms of depression and mental fatigue.

For some people, they remove everything from their life and then think they have nothing left, but in reality, they might be removing things because there is just too much to deal with.

You only have this much mental space, you only have this much attention, this much time to give to what you need most.

When I get really messy (physically, as in my surroundings), I don't think about it as being crazy anymore, it's just about running out of mental space.  I cannot sort all these things.  Whether I like it or not, mentally I'm running through stuff in the background, or running through stuff during the day to the point where I can deal with "stuff" anymore, and I lay my clothing on the ground because it's the easiest solution.  Sometimes it's not about strength it's just about capacity.

People who don't worry never run out of mental space.  I guess part of the problem is that to begin with, we are so occupied with our pasts and futures that it's impossible not to worry without actually concentrating on not worrying, being in a meditative state of now.

I will try.


I just want to close things, some chapters in my life.
I removed some people from my msn contacts, or from visibility (ex bfs and other people who are basically not in my life anyway).
Cleaning my desktop also.

Maybe it's also this emptiness or pointlessness, that whatever I do it comes back, like cleaning my desktop is pretty futile.

Great to not be on antidepressants

Hello,
I've been off medication for a long time now.  I worked out a way to naturally feel better.  I've been educating myself on nutrition and health, and also formulating simple systems to get things done.  One of the easiest systems and something I finally encapsulated in a simple way.

I have a list of all the things I need to do in a day, and it goes like this:

• Rest well
• Eat well
• Exercise
• Socialise
• Laugh
• Get tasks done

It looks very simple but you would be surprised how many people don't get the basic start to the day right.  I understand the technical details behind all those tasks listed so I haven't listed them for myself, but basically explained:

1. Rest well  - If I'm still tired, I'm going to continue sleeping.  Same with being sick, I'm going to stay in bed.  Resting well means listening to your body first beyond everything else.  Within whatever scope you have for resting, do it.  If you are currently working then you must continue doing it if you have to, but if you have a chance to take a break, do it.  Depression and chronic sickness is one thing that never gets well if a person doesn't make chances first.  You need to heal first so that is most important above all else.  The world still moves, but you have to find your ground before you start running with it, otherwise you head is gonna spin and you'll feel lost and not really 'in it'.
2. Eat well - If only people knew what that meant!  It's not eating for taste alone, and there are many things that aren't healthy for you, even non-obvious things.  For one thing, nearly everyone is allergic to wheat.  If you can cut this out of your diet, you can save your gut some work.  Also fruits are so crucial and essential, fresh fruits, for the enzymes and antioxidant content.  I can hardly digest my cooked food without eating fruits.  Make sure you eat a variety of fruit, and the more 'exotic' ones, with more vitamins.  Eat something that isn't an orange, apple, banana, for a change.  Cut out any saturated animal fat, and most common vegetable oils (soy, corn, peanut etc).
3.  Exercise - One that is easy to miss, I don't mean just going for a walk or carrying groceries.  I mean something that will make your heartrate go up and your lymph nodes moving. It means something different for everyone, you can choose whatever you want, karate, cycling, wild dancing, just as long as you are really moving and blood is pumping through your veins and oxygen is going around.
4. Socialise - Antisocial behaviour is one of the symptoms of depression, that you want to draw away from people, you hate people, you get tired of things.  But socialise for socialisations sake, it brings up the endorphins and really reverses the trend of being all alone.  Put yourself with some people.  Once you feel you are not alone you will start to normalise this feeling even if you don't even care or enjoy being with those people all the time.  
5. Laugh - This is the fun part, (though all the other parts should be fun also!) but everyone needs a good laugh.  Laughter is therapy.  Enjoy life.
6. Now after you have done all those things, you will probably be back in the mood to get things done.  Still need a push?  Get it done anyway because then you feel better!

I feel great after doing all six steps.  I'm missing a bit of exercise but trying to catch up.

See ya!