Well, I didn’t sleep much. Or not in the night hours anyway. Kinda got a few hours till 2am, stayed up until 5am or 6am cos I couldn’t get back to sleep. Didn’t bother checking the time, but it was light outside. Actually I remember only getting to sleep at 8am. I made myself some tea and was going to drink it. I did some yoga before, like about 1 min, and then went back to lay on the bed. So basically I fell asleep. Woke up at 1pm, so I guess I feel mentally refreshed but physically really tired.
took the pill at 6am, not sure if it help me sleep or not, but I sure slept after, so I guess its ok. Was I dreaming anything? Can’t really remember. The best restful sleep I have is usually when I can’t remember what I was dreaming. Also could have helped me sleep that I ate some cookies.
Had thought of going to IKEA, but then thought how much stress that in-store music would cause me. And also that it’s very time consuming. I just want to return some stuff. Was a bit embarrassed to ask my friend to drive me there so I can return some stuff but I kind of want a new table also, or something with a draw with a filing cabinet inside, hopefully something I can lock.
It’s holidays now, and I can choose to relax or not. Today I kind of feel like I’m finally making sense, and acting on something sensible, like not going to IKEA to stress myself out over returning maybe 20 bucks or so worth of items.
Going to play a small poker tourney, wonder if this helps my stability? I usually feel kinda bad when I lose, even in a free tournament. It’s like I would beat myself up over stuff, “i played bad, I did it wrong”, this voice kinda lectures me, but its more like whining. But when I play online, sometimes I just close the damn window when I’m peeved, so I forget to even think about the whole hand.
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